tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-75553019490797284422012-02-16T12:39:59.077-08:00Jeremyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06444222811028734818noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7555301949079728442.post-80309964016582116632011-07-07T20:36:00.000-07:002011-07-07T20:36:23.659-07:00I have never been one for writing, having a journal, and I've never had a blog.&nbsp; I'm doing this because there is so much "mental noise" that I can't seem to keep my thoughts straight.&nbsp; I''m hoping that posting my thoughts and feelings will help me sort things out.&nbsp; I have no intention of making this blog public, but in the event that it is read, I won't be using any real names.<br /><br />I don't know how I got here....and yet I feel like I should have seen this coming.&nbsp;&nbsp; The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of emotion.&nbsp; I have lost my desire for almost everything, including things that I was once passionate about.&nbsp; I have always been able to take a look at my life and realize what was truth and what was simply emotions.&nbsp; I can't do that now.&nbsp; In fact, the more I have tried to do this, the worse the darkness has become.&nbsp; <br /><br />My heart is a mess.&nbsp; It feels dead.&nbsp; I wonder how I can ever feel anything again.&nbsp; I'm tired of feeling this way, and I'm tired of my thoughts running in a constant loop.&nbsp; It needs to stop.<br /><br />There is much to say, and I may explain things in detail later.&nbsp; I may not.&nbsp; It doesn't matter.&nbsp; All I know is that I need to find who I was, and to kill the man I feel I am becoming.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7555301949079728442-8030996401658211663?l=missing-person.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Jeremyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06444222811028734818noreply@blogger.com0